Blogs, journals, all this writing about yourself on the web is pretty self indulgent to begin with.  I write because it helps me remember these things that sort of make me crazy also sort of make me laugh.  Stepping back and considering that has been helpful.  I also write because I have been told my life is funny.  This is something I have been hearing since high school.  I am funny (if unintentionally) and the way I tell you things is funny (if with interesting spelling and grammar usage).  I have wanted to be a writer since I was in high school.  Not because I was funny, because I was very adament on the fact I wasn’t trying to be funny.  I was TRYING to be serious.  Seriously.

I fell in love with writing because I fell love with being really self indulgent which was taking evidence and making it fit my opinion.  In other words, I loved writing research papers.  It was the natural progression from a girl on the debate team who also loved words.  Once I realized I didn’t really have any other skills I decided quite certainly I wanted to grow up, work at a think tank (RAND being my true dream).  I wanted to write scathing research and opinions that smart people would read and realize I AM NOT TRYING TO BE FUNNY DAMMIT I AM SERIOUS.

Instead, I fell in love, moved to Memphis, got married and then it occured to me there aren’t any think tanks in Memphis.  After a series of jobs I hated I sort of tripped into working in IT and have been there since then.  I am raising a great kid with a great man.  I am still trying to explain I am trying to be serious, but instead have embraced the fact that I am going to trip and fall and say silly things and laugh and being funny is ok.

As far as the spelling and grammar goes, I try.  I swear I do.  My grammar and spelling was fairly good back when I was in high school and college.  I blame everything on instant messaging.  That and trying to fit writing into the 5 minutes in a day when I am not working, chasing a kid, leading scouts, being a pta mom, reading, sleeping, or trying to drink all of this into sumbission.

I like that people overlook that and I like that I am not alone.  You are trying very hard to be serious, but can’t help cracking a smile either.